Truth be told, one needs to check his or her body system regularly, if not, a strange mayhem might occur without any notification. My thinking is too strong, especially  when it comes to morality, metaphysics, knowledge. Etc. It’s as if my mind has been furnished with an unending thought. I hope my randomized mayhem will be heard. – – Akinrulie Opeyemi Joshua. 



 Where is my hope? Where is my joy and happiness? Where is the world of euphoria I once dreamed  about? Where are my visions which I have encrypted for my personal consumption? I left intelligence in order to be myopic so that I can gain an unending knowledge, yet I was attacked by the world of mediocrity because she thought I know whereas I am just like an empty vessel willing to subject myself to something profitable. 

   I thought happiness will be forever, I thought every weapon will be useful in a battle, so I carried all,not knowing that all those weapons are invalid. I sat on the ground because I wore a white garment, so that people will fall for my humility. I am only putting myself in the shoes of  some people, but I wouldn’t know if this will align with their thoughts. It was named an express road not because it’s free, but it’s a planned suicide. I am feeling somehow only God knows my next move, may be He has predestined what I Will become. 

   I have not ended my story I know it’s not interesting, but please kindly follow it. Unhappiness is a bad teacher, she will make you to be happy publicly, and interiorly you will be dying. What life have I chosen? I am just writing with my instinct, but I hope it won’t fail me, I hope I will be able to survive this race. I hope hope will not revert herself, I hope she will continue to give me hope to keep  hoping. I have tried my best, I have diligently embraced hardwork, when will it yield the necessary fruits? 

   Even those that are dreaming have realized their dreams despite the fact that visions are real. Is it not better to be a dreamer than a seer? The essence of everything is, to accomplish a particular goal, or am I not right? Mind you, when I Speak I don’t introduce a religious way of thinking except if it is related to religion. If all my  thoughts are related to immorality I would have been the most famous celebrity on earth, I speak about morality only the few ones hear my solo expressions. A society that is infected with an omen immorality will cherish their companions. 

   If my thinking is shallow, how come my thoughts aren’t affected? One day I stood at the middle of an ocean I thought deeply to the extent that I wanted to cross to the other side, but I was cautioned with  a simple question : why should I? Honestly, what sense will it make if I should cross? The establishment of the other side might be fair and unfair,I would have gone there myself, but it’s a one way decision. My tears can’t be wiped even the towel given me couldn’t rescue my tears, what else is left? Whether it is real or not, it will surely come to pass. What reality do I have? What position will I find myself in this contemporary age? 

  I shouldn’t pity myself rather I should keep moving. There will be no bus stop, but let’s reason together : if my life has no bus stop, how will I evaluate myself? That is, if my life is going without an end,I will be purposeless, don’t you think so? Kindly put yourself in this scenario. The common thing is, the society will watch you until time has passed before drawing their conclusions. A life of individualism which no one is ready to gaze at you. I wish I could stop how I think, I wish I could be gentle like God, but the human nature won’t allow me. 

  I have furnaced my thoughts , I have decided to follow the wrong path in order to deceive them,not knowing that there is a right path within. As a matter of fact, when the merriment is over the only  scene that will be seen is, an individual, no body will be available to safe or save you. I hope my mayhem is not too long, I hope you not disappointed, I know this is not sensible, but kindly accept it. Yet, I am still walking in the corridor of many assumptions which I hope they will get me to the land of fruition. What essence will it be if my thinking is dormant? What progress will you make if you are under the canopy of inactive thinking? 

   If I should decide to proceed without involving myself, how is it going to be like? Is that really possible? This is a war within which everyone has. In a nutshell, I don’t want to go too far, I want it to be short always,so that it won’t be tiring, the fact will always remain whether it is or it’s not. I have spoken randomly, so as to touch every area, but as soon as the reading culture has been upgraded from RED to GREEN, I will elongate my articles. The mayhem can only be solved by you and mine can only be solved by me, not the society. 


No chance to express deeply, when I write I am so cautious that is why I make whatever I want to say to be short and precise. I have randomized my thoughts in the shape of reality, I hope all these will pave a way for you. I will see you in the next chapter of a written life. – – Akinrulie Opeyemi Joshua. 

            TO BE CONTINUED…. 





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